What Time Is It Now

曾经 Again

通常在夜晚时都很喜欢想起曾经!
曾经这个部落格的更新很多,
内容多数发泄,分享和各空“争辩”?
如今这里好像静了。
也许都三年了!
每次要整理硬碟时总会有缅怀过去的开心时刻。
过去的总总证明了我没有白过我的青少年时期!
哈哈~
迈入青年了,
思想上真的改变很多。
工作的日子就像下棋一样;
就像戏里的对白一样“认真就输”;
就像演戏一样;
就像蚂蚁一样;
就像大家说的一样:“No Life"
我相信暂时的 No Life是应该的~
踏入社会的开始是不应该计较工作时间长,
认真学习才是应该的~
Anyway,
在另一个阶段的开始也应该不要让它留白!


Reminisce

Erm....Long long days ago,
I had been leaving my blog long long days ago.
Finally to have sometime to think back and reminisce the past.
In these long long days,
I average spent 12 hours on working.
The never endless work keep coming and adding.
To be honest, if the work position and job scope is what I been looking for,
This all spent is worth, because I enjoy doing my job.
Somehow, the god like to give me some challenge;
so I accepted it.
I use to tell myself "Be tough, you can win the challenge"
Ya, the 3 months hard time finally past.
The main point I would like to highlight is
"I never met a Gemini people which is a stupid"
Should I call her dumber?
Maybe calling other dumber is kind of manner less.
But I can't stand with anything she did.
She work here about 8 months and everyday got scolded.
Her ability such like shit.
I don't know how come a no common sense lady can work in this big company.
The main point is, I need to work under this stupid.
Hey, come on! You are nothing!
Finally, you are nothing!
Ya, finally you resigned.
But you never know how ugly you left.
No one miss you and none of them attend your farewell with appreciation heart.
Everyone will just blame all the shitty you left.
Fine, nothing to talk about you any more.

In this 4 months,
I cover up my origin,
mom always told me to be modest.
That's why I keep quiet.
I'm the person of
"I said what I did; I won't just said and do nothing."
But somehow no one see my ability.
should I leave here too?
I felt
I lost my life.
My music, my dance, my creativity.
My creativity keep dying everyday.
I have no time to do with my lovely music.
I can only listen it during sleeping.
Sleeping = nothing I listened.
how sad of my life without music.
I never do with my skills and I started forgetting them.
I'm so worry to lost my skills.
My design, my editing, my music compose.
I felt strange with my violin.
I felt my bone become hard.
How long I didn't dance?
My passion of ART!

I gave myself a day relax.
And I think back quite a lot memories.
I use to dance with a gang of girls on every Saturday,
somehow the conflict make us ended the relationship.
I use to share design experience with my "brotherhood",
because of we start working, we seldom met each others.
I use to chit-chat everyday with my "Friend family",
is it because we grow so we become strange;
we are not like last time.

Is ok,
the good memory always in heart.
understand this real world make us become the stranger.
Anyway,
I will try my best to keep all this relationship.
Find back my passion and my life.

Cheer everyone! 

Long Day

It's been a long story day!
Long long long...
Haiz!

Is time to sleep to avoid the "creative thinking"
I don't want this long day anymore.
Stop stop stop.

.....................................................................
Deadliest Catch's Captains!
You guys rock!

[发泄]

原来我在别人的眼中是那么的不堪?
[Case 1]
我和你一起站在路边
没错我拿到免费的票。
我也知道你喜欢她们。
可是我也是。
你至少在韩国看过她们,
我没有咧。
我真的很想亲眼看她们跳舞!
我原本只想静静的看,
想到好像背叛你,
结果我还是拼命的拍了几张。
结果终究还是被你说。
我当时只想分享自己的幸运,
可是你却看成挑衅。

[Case 2]
我在星期天遇到一个挑战失败了。
结果我在twitter宣泄了自己的心情。
Sad? No I think disappointed will more suitable to describe my feeling now! I'm nothing!  ”
不知道是否我想多,看到一些status后觉得在讲我。
如果是我想多那你们就当没有一件事
如果是真的我还真的想澄清
“我并没有跟进你们任何事,也因为避免误会之前都不看,也不主动去和其他人联络。但是这次是因为某团发放在自己的版,我才看的。对!我回复了。我也没有要挑衅的意思!是真心觉得她跳得很好!就这样!”

发泄在这里,
对!
我觉得现在这一刻的自己很幼稚!
真的没必要去解释。
所以写这篇感受感觉好像小学那样!
虽然很幼稚,
我只想讲,
我言行端正!
奈何有多多的是非围绕我。
我,无能为力。
好心难道真的做坏事?