I been trying to do~

I always feel comfortable when staying at home, so in Chinese we said "house is warmest". I feel happy when I staying with same age guys and girls, especially my "family" friends. I feel unlock when having time with the "same mind" person. But I seen like long time didn't see them. I quite miss them.
I care about my family, "family" friends, friends and sisters. But I don't know how to contact with them because I'm not active in calling or organize gathering. It seen like a gap starting between. Maybe is time to change. Anyway I always feel stress released when I have my time with them even though just 1 hour. Thanks for wake up my mind, all of you are my psychologist.
I was having a hard time now, because I was late. I have been trying to change something but failed. I thought don't mind the tiny things, my world will go peace. But something happened and telling me it doesn't work. I have been trying to don't bother the gossip stuff, but don't know why I involved in that. I really hate people saying the rumor, untruth and I don't like stay with the people who proud of themselves without any qualification. I just don't want to listen or heard somethings let me feel weird and I just want a peaceful life.

Jay,
When you facing the unsolvable problem, you escape back Seattle. I understand because there is your home the warming home. I having a hard time now too. So I can understand. Seen like we having hard time now, let's cheer up. But how long we have to wait this hardest time past?

I'm not criticizing anyone, don't get me wrong. It's just a paragraph expressed my mood.